Amanda Holden has admitted that despite being a judge on arguably one of the biggest talent shows, she is laying herself bare and expects to be judged.
The musical theatre star today releases her debut album, Songs From My Heart, following a week of controversy surrounding her on-stage outfits.
Amanda, 49, who sits as a judge on Britain’s Got Talent has lifted the lid on her record which sees her showcase her jaw-dropping vocals and opening up on her most personal struggles.
The Mirror reported Amanda saying: “It’s the vulnerability of showing yourself and being open and aware of everyone looking at you and everyone judging you.
“But I’m up for it, I’m up to be judged, I am a judge.
“As If We Never Said Goodbye sort of seals my life in the theatre and my life in this industry.”
The Laurence Olivier Award winner likened the release of the album to a “wobbly tooth that won’t come out”.
She told The Sun: “I am just so nervous but so relieved that it’ll be out and we just can get on with promoting it and doing all the stuff that comes with it.
“But I can’t wait now, to be absolutely honest.”
While singing some of musical theatre’s best-loved songs, Amanda has also laid her heart out as she dedicates a song to her stillborn son, Theo.
The track With You features the lyrics “you took my life with you, took my world with you”.
Amanda said husband Chris instantly thought of their son when he heard the song, she later credited her husband for staying strong while her world came tumbling down.
The mum-of-three was seven months pregnant when a scan revealed that Theo’s heart had stopped beating.
She later delivered her “sleeping baby” via a Caesarean section.
Amanda who shares three children with husband Chris Hughes, Alexa, 14, Hollie, eight, and Theo opened up In July on the BBC One show Dear NHS Superheroes about how she learnt her son had sadly passed away.
Speaking about the heartbreaking moment, she said: “I held him in my arms for the first time and that is when I realised that I was still a mummy even though he was fast asleep.”
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